It's been a while! As some of you know (and some of you don't know), I moved from Minnesota to Texas six months ago. *insert deep breath and look of defeat*
Okay, okay so it's not that bad. It's nice here. It's surprisingly quiet and it's large and beautiful, but it's not home. In the six months we've been here it hasn't felt like home. We have a great apartment and are surrounded by kind people. The weather is pretty much the opposite of Minnesota's weather and we have a lot to be thankful for in being here.
All that being said, I'm ready to feel at home again. For those of you who have severe anxiety disorders, you can imagine what this feels like. I've had anxiety issues since I first became a mother. Sometimes it's manageable and sometimes it's just not. But, since we arrived in this awesome state, it has just been debilitating. That's a huge inconvenience and it stops me from doing many many things and could cost me a lot of opportunities if it continues. I've been using all sorts of methods to try to keep it from taking over, so there are still good days (every good day is a win if you ask me).
It doesn't help that this just isn't what I expected. We had all sorts of expectations when we moved here and not a single one of them has come to fruition. Which is fine - it happens. Things aren't always going to go your way. That's alright. If you don't try, you don't know. That would be worse.
So, I'm going to have to get creative. That creativity may lead to more frequent blog posts. I'm not sure in what capacity, but there you have it. I'm going to do everything I can to reach my most desired goal. At this point, that's going home to Minnesota. It won't be tomorrow, of course. These things take time. But it's going to be an interesting adventure making this happen because it's going to take money. It's going to take patience.
SO - I thought I'd bring my readers along with me on this quest so that I can show them as I go that nothing is impossible. I'll encourage you and you can encourage me and we'll get this figured out. It's going to be fun really reaching for something I want and it's going to feel SO good to get it.
I think the best method is to line it up from start to finish so we know what we're working with. My number one goal is to move back to MN without any outside help financially. We are going to earn and save the money to do this on our own. My secondary goal is that we'd love it if we could buy a house upon moving back so that we aren't stuck in the renter's circle for the rest of our lives. Challenging? YES.
SO:
GOAL 1: Moving back to Minnesota
GOAL 2: Buying a house.
CHALLENGES: Blown disk in back, extreme anxiety (no big deal - I got this!)
For those of you who are interested in seeing how this goes, check back later! If not, thanks for stopping in and reading this far! Remember that nothing is impossible and I'll find a way to prove it to you!
I'll be talking to you really soon! Have a great day! <3
